Ten Years Ago
Initially… It doesn’t make sense to me how long ago ten years ago really is. When I think about it in depth, it makes perfect sense. A lot of crap has happened in ten years. Where I am now, musically and as a person, is a perfectly “imperfect” evolution. When I say “ten years ago”, I’m speaking about a section in time… not a year, or a date… just an atmosphere… a mindset.
When I left high school in ’02, I had almost no fond memories of it, and I wanted as little to do with those experiences as possible. It wasn’t significant to me whatsoever. My peers seemed to feel differently. But I was rigid in my teenage angst.
Now I look back, and I’m flooded with emotions from these particular moments in time. Little fragments pop in and out… small details, nothing noteworthy… but definitely memorable. Nothing that even makes sense in words. It’s not simply the events that took place, it’s the wave of empathy I continuously feel towards my 16-year-old self. My experience in high school was neither extremely positive or negative… it just was. It was hard stuffing such an idealistic mind, combined with angsty adolescence, in a body my size and in an environment like mine. But, I suppose it’s like that for most everybody.
